Think
of a lung. This is where it all starts. Words. Breath. A membranous sac. Two of
them. Nature does everything in twos. Two legs. Two arms. Two ears. Two eyes. Two
lungs. Almost all. There’s the matter of the nose. A singular organ, mounted
importantly in the center of the face, protruding imperially and irrefutably
into the oceanic dominion of space and time like the bow of a ship, but with
two little nostrils. Two little holes. One of them – the cavities around the
nasal passage, a labyrinth of thin-walled chambers (labyrinthus ethmoidalis) interposed between two vertical plates of
bone (nasal septum) - is often clogged.
If I’m in bed trying to sleep, the air begins to burn in the good one. The free
passage. It helps to turn, lie on my other side and breathe through the other
nostril, as soon as it opens.
Words
are made of breath. Air is the central ingredient. It becomes breath as soon as
it enters the lungs. It enters the aveoli (air sacs) and passes to the
surrounding capillaries, which moves oxygen into the blood, and so nourishes
the brain, which is always hungry for news and adventure. It becomes a string
of words as soon as the mouth and tongue shape the breath into currents of
meaning and the larynx gives it all a vibration and the cerebral cortex bothers
itself with pertinence and meaning. The proper sounds. The proper structure.
The proper weight and inflection. If you're lucky, someone might actually be
listening. They may sigh with acknowledgment. They may nod vigorously in
agreement. They may look quizzical, or irritated. They may concede to your
desires, or slap your face. Who knows? People are weird. Their language makes
them weird. Which came first? Human beings or language?
I
believe that language shaped our destiny. Our physique. This whole bipedal
operation. Two legs carrying us forward and backward and jumping to put a ball
in a basket. It’s a belief. It’s a conception I have. A mindset. A position. A
caboose on my train.
Who
hasn’t been swallowed by a belief? You find it in all kinds of correspondence,
at least from the past. People articulating beliefs in letters. Ideas,
declamations, unicorns. A good word: correspondence. Meaning connection,
alliance, accord. Exchanging letters. One imagines an inkpot and a quill. The
lone rider of a pony express. A guy like Charles Bukowski delivering the mail
on a hot Los Angeles afternoon. It seems dated. Obsolete. People don’t
correspond anymore. Correspondence has gone the way of the dodo.
I
miss correspondence. I miss getting letters typed on paper. I could feel the
letters. The impact of the typebar on the ribbon indented the paper. When you
held a letter in your hand you could feel the impact on the other side of the
paper. I could almost read them like braille. Language was tangible.
Although
letters were most often written by hand. It seems so quaint now. You could see
the fetus of an idea evolve by longhand into noodles of wishful chitchat.
There
are correspondences to all sorts of things. Externalized. Thoughts were
materialized. They had substance and tread. Telephone cable and horse hair.
I
miss corresponding to salt. To bread. To the heat of an idea. To the things of
this world. Phenomena. The slosh of water in a bathtub. Waves are sequential
occurrences of energy. The same way an airplane venerates the air with the
shape of its wings.
Shape
is essential for the reproductive success of cells, and the obscurities of the
Fun House. These include distortion mirrors, snakes, aliens with laser guns,
flying pigs, and the tendrils of declension: noun, pronoun, or adjective. We
get entangled in them all the time but you can’t assemble a semi-coherent idea
without these instruments. Soliloquys make good house pets. But you’ve got to
feed them words or they wander into darkness and are lost forever. An unkempt
intolerance is sometimes better than a woeful compliance. Thinking makes the
head speak. The words come out into the light of day and startle the
houseguests. Does anyone want pancakes? Pancakes are the metaphysics of
breakfast. But butter is the birth of meaning.
So
much for the Fun House. It may not be fun for everybody. There is a sense of
things that some people have, and many people do not. You know who you are.
There’s
an area of the garden where I can feel my senses rise to the occasion and fill
me with cadence. There’s a rhythm in the way the earth yields its luggage to
the grip of our attention. We step back and consider the white chickens beside
the wheelbarrow which is glazed with rainwater. So much depends on a curandero
with a sparrow in a red sombrero. What I find in the past can sometimes be
applied to crystal. We often get dappled during our ensemble. It looks pretty.
Oh well. Here comes the night. I can see it striding over the mountains to the
west. Its phantoms already walk among us, legends of the mailbox, the faint
scent of heaven commingled among their letters.
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