I’ve often thought of paying someone skilled at needlepoint to sew Jean Paul Sartre’s salty phrase “Hell is other people,” so that I could pin it to the door of our apartment.
Now, why would I feel that way? I’m going to be
optimistic and assume that most people with even a modicum of familiarity with
the species inaptly named homo sapiens on planet Earth would have some
appreciable understanding as to why someone might feel well represented by that
phrase. Certainly, anyone who has dealt with the U.S. healthcare system, spent
time in a sports arena, stood in line to order a latte, driven a car, tried
hard to make ends meet on a kitchen table, flown on a passenger jet with a toddler
kicking the back of your seat or watched an episode of Keeping Up With the
Kardashians would – at the very least - excuse such blunt acerbity, if not find
it relatable, and chalk it up to the inhospitable moods of people who pay
attention to things.
A video catches my attention. An 81-year-old woman,
arrested by Metropolitan police for silently sitting in Parliament Square,
London, with a sign reading, “I oppose genocide,” is flanked by two female
police officers guiding her to what I would have to assume was a police van.
The woman was extremely frail, and could barely walk. Another story, just
minutes later, catches my attention: Grok, Elon Musk’s chatbot, was briefly
banned from Musk’s social media platform X, due to its posts accusing Israel
and the United States of committing genocide in Gaza. Kafka, on his best day,
couldn’t make this shit up.
So yeah. One might say these are the end times. One
might also condemn humanity for its chronically petulant violence. But I
oversimplify: “hell is other people” has layers of meaning that are
surprisingly deeper than raising a middle finger to humanity. Sartre was not
suggesting that people are inherently evil. The phrase comes from a play he
wrote called No Exit.
No Exit takes place in
hell, which is a room appointed with Second Empire furniture, three sofas and a
bronze sculpture. Three people – a man and two women – share the room with one
another. All are tortured by guilt and remorse. This is where hell comes in. The
hell of hell. They torture one another, not just by judgements they make on one
another, but by judgements they make on themselves. They implore one another
for validation, affirmations that their actions on earth were defensible,
justifiable, if not actually noble in some instances. They go in circles.
Tempers flare. Alliances are formed. A sexual tension emerges. The emotional
pitch rises, subsides, then flares up again with renewed vigor, as additional
layers of complexity and maddening ambiguity are added to the grand guignol. At
one point, the man – a deserter from the army who is executed by firing squad –
opens the door of their room, which until then had been locked. He’s free to
walk out. But doesn’t. He can’t. He doesn’t know why. But he can’t. And that’s
when he arrives at the realization that hell isn’t filled with devils with
pitchforks. Hell is other people.
Existence precedes essence. Why is that? There are no
prescribed roles. We enter life without a script. We make our own meaning. It’s
all invention. We make shit up. A combination of lungs, vocal folds, and breath
create worlds. Words make worlds. Here I sit, pressing bells and buttons
innumerable. Some of them glow. Some of them throb. If this act becomes
tedious, please alert me, and I’ll refund your attention. I’ll package it in a
box with lots of bubble wrap. Attention is a precious thing and shouldn’t be
wasted. Protocol calls for a solution. My recommendation is to build a scow and
float down the Meuse River à la Arthur Rimbaud, drunk on the effluvium of life.
Delirium is neither a turnstile nor an unction. It’s a fantasia. It’s an
outcome, a natural development. The plant fondles the water from the pump. The
thunder loosens its tongue. We’re efficient beginners. All of us. It’s the end
that is difficult. The water spreads into an estuary. And the mind joins its
rhythms with the wings of an albatross.
Is the end, in fact, the beginning of a journey? It is
if you believe there’s a soul. Energy can neither be created or destroyed. So
it makes sense something of our being would continue. Maybe not in a
recognizable form, or a surviving ego, a sense of selfhood, but a diffuse
energy, an impalpable aura, adrift in space until some inexplicable event
channels our energy into another form of being. This is me being metaphysical.
And wishful. Deep down I’m more empirical. Even in bodily form I was never actually
me, but a constellation of cells and organs that developed billions of years
ago and evolved into the bipedal creature I am today, lying on the bed with a
cat on my lap listening to Albert King and Stevie Ray Vaughn play “Texas Flood Jam.” My identity has been theater all along,
as anyone’s, as Hamlet or Ophilia, as Napoleon or Cleopatra, as Dolly Parton or
Etta James, playing out an impromptu script in a world nobody really
understood, except frogs and Komodo dragons. And I’m not sure about them.
I agree with Nietzsche: without music, life would be a
mistake.
And I wonder, has anyone composed a song called “Hell
Is Other People?”
I’ll bet it kicks ass. And makes everybody in the room
do a wang dang doodle.
And jump in a drug to paradise.

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