The day toughens when it bends with mirrors. The
border is completely bullets. How do we break on through to the other side? If
it rains a holiday on the sculpture we will come to our whiskers in pride and
ribbons. We will cross at dawn. Your mind seems bruised with surprise. Well,
it’s only natural. A gun bangs and a noodle whirls. This leaves more space for
Monday. Only globules of this show that an enclave can be a thing of pain,
including infection, chaos, and a blister broken by a mahogany shave. The garments
are by Bach. Blood the story is shattering into words. The rustle of leaves in
this anthology writhe in deeper attraction. Clasp the steam that is enriched by
heaven. It exceeds communion. Bend your subtleties in exhibition. The raspberry
is so improbably spatial that it swims in itself. There are now more mirrors,
each with that focused ultramarine brain, and snow between loaves of
pumpernickel. The dawn comes in daubs haunted and serious, like a human being
or something. You know? Like an odor with heft and touch. We crave the push of
ourselves into radical ramification. Pumpernickel in its convocation with life
and its balanced burdens. Ingredients obtrude into antiquity. This means
that to consider a moose as a form of hinge enriches ocher. Being examines its blisters,
which, being such, do no injury to iron. This is eager to be at you. The desk,
treading in its supposition, is flexing a leg to cylinder Apollinaire up to your willow, which has
begun to take form as a monument or helicopter. The tonic is as the heart
agreeing to tide pool its subtleties of artery and vein. The muscle of it spits
goldfish to such pungency that life seems unprecedented in its deliverance.
Take the highway to the end of the night. There stands Jim Morrison. His ghost.
His voice. His coordinates, which are glimpsed with emotion through the
mahogany of France to the syntax of crows, where it is then imitated by a
simmering ultimatum, framed in coagulant blood, like the horizon. An enigmatic
Mediterranean word echoes subversion in a language which breaks alpaca into its
necessary anthology of bubbling
syllables. Umbrella bones fall like wheels through the atmosphere for a bug.
Its massive roots have the pasting of heaven. The Jolly Green Giant cleans his
dish, or spoons it over an obscure papier collé clapper which is but a batch of
tea. The present is a tense that a Hindu throws into a blue emotion, a puddle
from Rio Tinto which develops an echo. I was lost until I came upon this
throbbing Braque made of lips and fingernails. Quest combines the gift of
energy with coffee because what the passion moistens is a garden. There is a
bug there which is an abstraction boxing
its way to forty inches of mutation to run a destiny. And a spectrum explodes so
that you could fluff coal into willow, or go home and write a poem. The
daylight, stabbed by pines, haunts everyone’s ambivalence. The sag has been
shrewdly studied. The strain is a description of oval, but the Louvre abhors to
put itself in a sweat for it. This is because it’s upside-down and the
metaphors are hectic with eggnog. The result of this is bubbles.
Thursday, May 22, 2014
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Bed
Bed
is the most important piece of furniture in our lives. It is a place of healing
when we’re sick, a place of delicious languor when we’re lazy, or meditative,
or lost and inconsolable. We are born in a bed. We die in a bed. We have sex in
beds. We listen to the radio in bed. We watch TV in bed. We stare at the
ceiling in bed. We suffer colds and mumps and malaria in bed. We forget
ourselves in bed. We amuse ourselves in bed. We explore shape and hair in bed.
We climb into dreams in bed. We promise desperate change and forgiveness in
bed. We toss and turn searching for sleep in bed. And when we find sleep we
assent to it gladly and break from the world to go drifting God knows where.
I
once visited Percy and Mary Shelley in Geneva, Switzerland in bed. I wasn’t in
bed when I got there. That is to say, my body was in a bed, but my spirit was
sitting cross-legged on the floor of the cottage that Lord Bryon had generously
offered the Shelleys during their visit.
During
my visit. My oneiric visit.
“How
vain is it to think that words can penetrate the mystery of our being,” wrote
Shelley in his essay “On Life.” “Rightly used they may make evident our
ignorance to ourselves, and this is much. For what are we? Whence do we come?
and whither do we go? Is birth the commencement, is death the conclusion of our
being? What is birth and death?”
We
dissolve into oblivion in beds, and in losing consciousness, gain the
consciousness of stars.
We
discover the basements and underworld fantasies of our true selves in bed. We
read in bed: magazines, journals, newspapers, iPads, books. Beckett in bed.
Burroughs in bed. Beattie in bed. Moby Dick in bed. Ulysses in bed. Guy
Davenport of Da Vinci’s Bicycle in
bed. Proust in bed à la recherche du
temps perdu.
Virginia
Woolf’s lighthouse sending its “sudden stare over bed and wall in the darkness
of winter” floods my mind with light and shadow and the murmur of the sea in
bed.
Rimbaud’s
Illuminations illumine my mind in bed: J’ai
tendu des cordes de clocher à clocher; des guirlandes de fenêtre; des chaînes
d’or d’étoile à étoile, et je danse.
Shakespeare in bed: “O sleep, O gentle sleep,
nature’s soft nurse, how have I frighted thee, that thou no more wilt weigh my
eyelids down and steep my senses in forgetfulness?”
And
what mimics the sweet oblivion of death better than sleep? Isn’t sleep the
rehearsal for that final sleep in which we exit the world permanently?
The
memories of people who have passed enter our minds when we lie in bed and the
mystic glitter of eternity permeates our muscles and relaxes and seduces us
into something larger than our normal selves, the boundaries of our skin and
limbs provoked daily by worry and the quashing chatter of remorse and
frustration. We slide into simulacrums embarked on stars gluing raindrops
together with the baked eyes of ravenous inner light and rise to our conscious
selves in the morning wondering what is real and what is not real, what is it
still stirring in us and will it crawl back into the night eventually or meet us
again when our eyes close and we ascend, blithe and willowy, newly delivered to
other worlds, other cities, other ecstasies thrashing in the linen of our
secret sharers.
A
bed is a sorcery of blankets and springs. Its suppleness bids us welcome. Its
simpleness earns our trust. It is where we dream. It is where lips find lips
and fingers find conceptions of skin that are smooth as the implications of
cats, wicked as the trinkets of insinuation.
In
France, if one goes bankrupt, the bailiff is entitled to take everything except
one’s bed.
I
love to sleep. Sleeping is my primary mission in life, my preparation for
death, for the final sleep, the sleep to end all sleep. The sleep from which I
will never awake. The bourne from which I will never return.
I
am a candle in sleep, a column of wax burned down to the bone of the plate, a
pool of wax and a tiny black wick, the last flicker of a flame snuffed into
gentle wisps of smoke.
I
particularly enjoy the two twilight states that accompany sleep: hypnogogia,
the twilight state that proceeds sleep, and hypnopompia, the twilight state
into which we emerge from sleep. It is in those states that I do some of my
most important work, achieve some of my most important insights.
Thought processes on the threshold of sleep differ radically from those
of ordinary wakefulness. Hypnagogia may involve a loosening of ego boundaries,
openness, sensitivity, and a sweet, empathetic dissolution between the
boundaries of the mental and physical environments. There is often a fluid
association of ideas and a heightened suggestibility. Thinking turns supple.
Pliant. Hypnagogic trains of thought turn abstraction into concrete imagery, or
find abstraction in the concrete. Sudden éclats of insight and problem solving
occur in these states between wakefulness and sleep. August Kekulé realized
that the structure of benzene was a closed ring while half-asleep in front of a
fire and watched molecules form into snakes, one of which grabbed its tail in
its mouth, à la the fabled ouroboros. Visions, prophecies, premonitions and
apparitions all emerge in this twilight world.
When
I sleep I raise my antenna into the fireworks of dream. I am transcendentally
amused beneath the blankets. I bump into stars and yell about feathers. I lay
my knife down in the midst of the lobster recruitment. My skin is leather I am
swollen and insoluble. I am soaked in railroads. The house is soft and
unfettered. I do not deny my meandering. When we sew, we sew fire. I am
literally mohair at the mailbox. And then I become music.
The
piano agrees with a hit song. I dig it and strike it with my shovel. I
personify myself with a hairbrush and include a little age which I shove into
quarks. My glasses hit the glass of the window and it sparks a distortion of
sound that tumbles through a voice shouting at a form of turret to enhance our
collective memory. I float a bite of thunder in circles. I catalogue a moccasin
behind the light. The ceiling convulses in exasperation.
I
am your hirsute profligate palpable pronoun. The pronoun I, which diffuses into
ink and becomes words, these words, which are brightness and wheels. I ramble
in the sky below the cemetery. If feels explicit. I cannot escape the brass or
the punches of dirt beneath my feet. I push the snow and yearn for you across
the river. There is a mink caboose there that is eager in its reality and
murders the mineral earth with its steel and carbon. I sugar a philodendron and
the philosophers all cringe. They drill through a wall of stars and arrive in
heaven bleeding tinfoil.
My
desires embarrass me. I space my beard until it coheres into sex. Life is
sweetness and elation on the vagina planet. My alchemy is the glue of
development. I flail anthologies at the birds. My incentives are vermillion, my
book is the waltz I perform on the water. I yank my throat out and scatter saga
buttons at the taxi driver. My thumb is everything red that I lift to my
sternum where it slides into vapor. A pair of friendly binoculars boils with
Shropshire. I take my medication before I go to bed where extrudes locomotives
and takes me to places where I can scratch my emotions with hypnopompic straw.
The
first thing I do when I wake is make the bed. What a curious expression, make
the bed. It is a little like making something. I’m attentive to the chaos of
sheets and blankets and strategize how to make it smooth and harmonious again.
A bed that appears orderly is an invitation to sweet, restful sleep. I like to
tuck the sheets in at the bottom. When I get into bed it helps to produce a
cocoon-like feeling. If my feet stick out I feel exposed. Vulnerable. I need to
feel hidden, invisible, gone from the troublesome world.
The
bed is a mode of transport. It is our vehicle, our spaceship into oblivion. It
is where we welcome the bidding of our unconscious. It is where the sparkling
cavern of our inner being lures us into its labyrinths. It is where we discover
our secret selves, our shadow selves, old feelings that are suddenly and
strangely renewed. Dead parents speak to us. Dead friends give us advice. When
we wake, our eyes open and the light of day dispels the spell.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
Dance of the Accidentals
Age
doesn’t matter. As soon as we decide that it’s high time we make a change in
our lives, do things differently, stop procrastinating, alter our
circumstances, get out of our rut, the first thing we encounter is that ugly,
merciless, sandpapery thing called reality. Reality is always invoked when we
dream of aspiring to new heights, get rich quick, or (more likely) try to get
someone else to do something. Fulfill an ambition, take on a new
responsibility.
But
what the hell is this thing called reality? Is it internal, external, a product
of the mind, something totally separate from the mind, an objective medium
standard for all people or a wobbly gestalt skewed variably according to our
culture and disposition?
What
is consciousness? What is essence? What is being? What is existence?
Reality
consists of pins and walls. Heliotrope and hemoglobin. Consciousness is more
congested. It drips morals and opera. Consciousness has wings. Reality has
friends. People in important places. Who write history. Who make history. Who
are history.
But
is this reality, or a disguise?
True
reality is a truly pure experience. Keats’s strenuous tongue bursting Joy’s
grape against the palate. But that’s Keats, not me. I’m dodging my own
proposition. Did I have a pure experience today? I had many. The first was the
feeling of the floor beneath my feet when I got out of bed this morning. The
second was noticing the feeling of the feeling of the floor beneath my feet
when I got out of bed this morning. The third was giving the feeling of the
feeling an analysis and a history and sublimating it into cumulonimbus in the
cloud chamber that is my mind.
Pure experience is what we experience before the
experience is clouded with judgment and words. Before we make a history of it.
Before we paint it, describe it, sculpt it, post it on Facebook or incise it in
copper. Before we sprinkle it with notes and blow it out of a horn.
History is to reality what rhythm is to melody: a C
major in flames, the inconvenience of different pitches for organs, a
polyphonic composition stuffed with accidentals. Jack LaLanne pulling a tug.
Tommy James singing “Mony Mony” for Hubert Humphrey.
When consciousness meets reality the result is milk.
Traffic lights blossom into prayer wheels. Laundry folds itself into armies of
tide pool angst and march around like generalities of floral chambray. Rain
falls up instead of down. The acceptance of frogs liberates bubbles of pulp.
Time sags with basement ping pong tournaments. Garrets ovulate glass
bagatelles. Realism percolates prizefight sweat. Details sparkle like crawling
kingsnakes in the mouth of a Mississippi attorney.
Reflection reveals that the most direct, primordial
facts are in fact the phenomena of consciousness, not utility belts.
It is not that consciousness is inside the body, but
that the body is inside consciousness. In other words, consciousness is a
cocoon in which dollops of meaning bounce around like outboard motors. The end
result is a recruitment of facts, paint, and carpet samples. Martian
butterflies invade the capital of a clank. Hats turn to airplane crashes for
inspiration. Their brims flap. Their crowns flop. Their bands burst.
Thus the reality and enduringness of hats is assured
not only by the transformation of profane space into a transcendent space but
the transformation of retail into geese. Every construction is an absolute
beginning; that is, tends to restore the initial instant, the plentitude of a
present that contains no trace of history, or haunted house. The push must
entail a pull. Pullulations of words float empires. Meanings get entangled in
description. In the obscurities of form, infinity gives birth to a railroad,
and time is nailed to space.
The relation between the phenomena of consciousness and
the stimulation of the brain is identical to the relation between what one
senses in the ear as a glockenspiel and what one senses in the eye or hand as
elephants on the rampage, circumcision, or initiation.
Incense suggests something entirely different.
Incense insists on texture, the theater of experience, which employs dialogue
and glucose. There is no circumcision. There is only shouting and dermatology.
A cat enters the room seeking affection and repose.
The law of causality is thus a habit of thinking that derives from velvet. With
reflection, we see that the materialists put the cat before the repose, and so
lose an important distinction between real estate and the astronauts lost in
the catacombs of a harmonica.
Esse est percipi: to be is to be perceived. But what
about Dark Matter? Dark Matter is perceived through its gravitational pull on
the more familiar normal matter of stars and treasury bonds, while dark energy
is perceived as poetry, a raging monsoon of pajamas and hogs.
Why does consciousness imagine the existence of such
a thing as flavor? Because The Blob had none. It ate everything. And was a B
movie of moderate success. And starred Steve McQueen. Who would go on to play
Doctor Thomas Stockman in Henrik Ibsen’s Enemy
of the People.
Flavor is an invention of the nose, which detects
gooseberry pie, and tingles with toast, which is salutation, and dusky with
butter.
The black sticks of writing, which we call letters,
creates Calibans, crustaceans, and free will. Deep reflection inevitably brings
us to Boise, Idaho, where giant potatoes tempt us into restaurants, and
eggplants exceed their dimensions in arbitrary vectors of regret and exile.
The gist of my argument is that true reality is a
table. It is not separate from the mind, it supports the mind, stands on four
legs, and can be extended with leaves, or the frolic of whales.
Thursday, May 15, 2014
The House of Cézanne
Is there anything more emphatic than an ovary? There
is a house that thinks so. Cézanne lives there. He paints things. Apples,
chairs, baskets, skulls. Men playing cards. Women frolicking outdoors. Women
sitting meditatively in chairs. Women in hats. Women in scarves. Women looking
sad. Women looking determined. Women. The walls of his house are fat but the
windows are swollen. The world presses itself against the glass creating colors
and birds. The laundry is a feast of folds and wrinkles. The shirts are
deviations of sleeves and collars. Everything speaks a language of mute
tumefaction. Even the chimney has something to say. Nothing in the house is
unscratched, unscathed, unexplored or sloppily ellipsoidal. Unless it truly means
to be ellipsoidal. And then it isn’t sloppy so much as wobbly, or cheerfully
decrepit. Nothing is so reduced to utility that it doesn’t flow into this world
on a continual basis, meeting perception with its own agenda, which is secret,
and soaked in metaphors, like a high school gymnasium, or incoherent
telepathist. Because really, when you think about it, what doesn’t communicate
with the mind directly? Well, people don’t, that’s for sure. People resort to
language, which is narcotic, and agglutinates in inkblots. But none of this
matters, because this is the house of Cézanne, where all is mutation, and
perfectly imperfect, or imperfectly perfect, the way some bowls can be when
they’re filled with soup, or fruit, or light opera. The plaster presses itself against
the wall like an innocent bystander. The page of a book on divination agrees to
become a nipple and propagate raw silk. The smell of raw participles knocks on
the door of moths. The sky disturbs the roof with its lusty details. The
radical éclat of a mountain on paper embarrasses a counterfeit destiny. The
energy of an experience battles the ennui of a grease stain. A thesis weeps for
the death of a narrative continuity. For such is the soul of the house of
Cézanne that the name of a thing will carry it into life and cause it to have
being and colloquy.
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Broadloom
The
logic of veneration is rubber. How does the egg take form in the chicken? Is it
rubber? Is rubber involved? Probably not. The truth is it’s calcium. Anatomy,
concentration, and pianoforte.
Mosquitoes,
meanwhile, hunger for blood. Baudelaire sits down to breakfast. He ponders his
eggs. They’ve been scrambled. But this answers nothing. The true answer is
light. Morning light. Clean morning light.
Morning
light.
My
perceptions sparkle with intriguing problems. The past, for instance. The past
is not so easily done away with. We’d all like to live in the present as Mr.
Alan Watts encouraged us to do. But the past is a drug that accelerates the mind.
It’s hard to let go of the past. In the morning the stars abandon the pavement
and return to their homes in oblivion. But as the eyes open to consciousness
the past seeps into the mind like the smell of twine and straw in a North
Dakota barn. Cows wander the valley. A huge frog leaps into the water: kerplop.
I
have constructed this emotion with tinfoil and stilts. I wear the mask of a
typewriter. I have roots in Minnesota. I have a glass hat and a junkyard
monstrosity pregnant with parables. My labors are varnished with hope. The
desire to escape desire is itself a desire. And yet the great blue sky is dear to my
hoe and there are so many verbs I don’t know what to do with them all.
I
operate a tug outside of Baton Rouge. I do this in my imagination which is where
all the fun is but there is no paycheck for me at the end of the month.
Poetry
is like that. Adjectives float in a pool of English and our intentions do not
always agree with the directions our minds take.
I
have a map of Kentucky, but that does little good. I’m not in Kentucky. I’m in
a state of mind I call Broadloom. I am hectic with reflections. I weave them
into gearshifts. Which I then sell to automotive dealers. Who tell me that a
wool gearshift will not work effectively. I should use denim, at least.
I
make inquiry of a cloud of vapor. I pound on a cloud of vapor. The vapor
responds with more vapor.
I
love the pointlessness of things. The vaporiness of vapor. The brickness of
bricks.
The
simplicity of the spoon celebrates the grace of abstraction. I sigh, and sip
some coffee.
I
fold the day into an anecdote and pin it to the wall.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Cold Rain Warm Lather
I go online and discover British poet Tom Raworth has posted at his blog a picture of Gregory Corso’s marble burial slab at its location in the English Cemetery of Rome, Italy. A friend sent it to him via smartphone. It’s rather amazing pictures can be sent that quickly, or taken that easily.
Corso is buried near Shelley and Keats, the way he wanted it. The inscription on the stone reads:
Spirt
is Life
It flows thru
the death of me
endlessly
like a river
unafraid
of becoming
the sea
‘Spirt’ is, of course, meant to be ‘Spirit.’ But I like the typo, and I think Gregory would have liked it, too. His spirit was all spurt, all huge ejaculatory élan vital. He even made brooding look cool. He didn’t brood quite like Hamlet, the master of brooders. Gregory’s irritabilities had dash and impishness in them. He was a wise old fool like King Lear’s companion, speaking truth to power in jokes and sparkling wit. Corso was a fool in the tradition of the Sacred Clown, the Native American Contrary, but did not suffer fools - the truly foolish, the stubborn, the obtuse, the pretentious - gladly. He could be exhilaratingly honest. He was full of mischief. But he was also tuned in to the sublime, the divine. He was like Shelley’s twentieth century incarnation, wild hair and trenchant vision, cutting through the bullshit of the age, the stuffy academicism and snickering, postmodern irony of the intellectual elite. He fully, unflinchingly recognized the pain and frustration and tragedies of life, but just as fully counterbalanced it with waggish, spirited philosophy and jingly bells of an ineluctable goofiness, a wonderful sense of the absurd, a carnivalesque ribaldry à la Rimbaud’s “Parade” with its collection of ragtag carnies that ends with the line “J’ai seul la clef de cette parade sauvage.” His work possessed a marvelous comedic energy, yet as bizarre and giddy as his lines could be he could just as easily slide into great cosmic epiphanies, or the imponderable treasures of reverie and dream. I learned life were no dream, he wrote.
I learned truth deceived
Man is not God
Life is a century
Death an instant
Impulse and perception are the stuff of life. There is a kind of fever we tap into when we’re exposed - and sensitive to - the possibilities of art. Art is synonymous with possibility; it dilates consciousness the way amphetamines and hallucinogens dilate consciousness. It is all the stronger when we discover the underlying fusion of art and life, that perception isn’t passive at all but creative in and of itself. The underlying absurdity and sadness of existence in daily realities, soap bubbles, warmth of a cat on our lap, wrinkles, suitcase snafus, hope, rubber bands, giddy inspirations, honey luminous and amber in a glass jar, orange peels on a gray sidewalk, gropings in the dark for a light switch or clothes, veins of rain down a sad Sunday window, brandy twinklings, star breath on lunatic glimmers of wilderness lakes, are what flavor the dishes of this spectacular movable feast, this endless highway, that ever alluring horizon in the sweet trickle of twilight.
I go for a run in the afternoon. It’s mid-May and raining heavily. It’s cold. If there weren’t so much foliage in the trees I would think the date to be closer to Thanksgiving or Christmas than Memorial Day. I curl my hands into a fist. They feel cold and sting a little. The sensation is simultaneously pleasurable and painful. My pants are soaked. How can a sensation be painful and pleasurable at the same time? It’s the intensity of it. Anything intense has qualities of both pain and pleasure. And sometimes a pain is pleasurable and a pleasure is painful. Though I think it’s mostly the former. Sometimes a pain if it isn’t too lasting and intense can feel strangely good, perhaps because it’s a feeling, plain and simple, and nothing makes you feel more alive than a mildly painful sensation that mingles itself in the nerves with electro-chemical impulses little stabs of lightning with no clearly identifiable quality good or bad and it all flows into the brain where it gets processed and sublimated into thoughts about it, rumination and speculation and wondering how and why and what is all this business about and why is it so cold and rainy this far into May? The robins sing. The sidewalks are littered with seriously green samsara.
I get home. I take a shower. The shower feels terrific. They always do. The body blossoms. The body opens its pores to little tongues and trickles of hot water. I grab a towel and dry myself and take the new can of shaving lather and press it a little too long and vigorously because I’m still used to the old can of shaving lather which I had to press long and hard to get the last little squirts and splurts of lather out of it, lather that turned wet and drooly, like cream. I now have a large mound of lather which I smear around my face and rinse the rest of it off. Who invented lather anyway how did lather work its way into human civilization? I’ve used soap before when I ran out of lather and the soak worked out ok so what’s up with lather? Is lather rather unnecessary? I’d rather lather than soap and soap is hope and rope and dope and ropey dopey soap. Soap is great in its own way neat and cubed bars of olive oil and canola, slippery ingots of liberated glycerol, pellets combined with fragrances Amazon lily baby rose chamomile bergamot black amber and lavender.
I read Kitaro Nishida on Will, then “Angoisse” by Rimbaud, which fascinates me. The two seem related. There is a connection. Will often takes action as its goal and accompanies it, but will is a mental phenomenon which is distinct from external action, and action is not a necessary condition for will, writes Nishida. Rimbaud’s “Angoisse” presents a highly complex figuration. He makes reference to ambition, which is an expression of will, as “continually crushed” (continuellement écrasées), i.e. unfulfilled, and in a spectacular manner. The poet begs his anguish, personified as the She of the poem, for pardon, for an affluent end that will compensate for the ages of indigence, that a day of success will lull he and his anguish-inducing ambitions to sleep on the shame (as if shame were a mattress), of “our” fatal incompetence. It’s a strange attitude, simultaneously disparaging, suppliant and conciliatory. There is a sharp sense of personal failure and deep frustration running beneath, but one that seems alloyed with a kind of sanguinary expectancy, of compensation for the heroics of being a poet in a world where only material, quantifiable attainment is the measure of success. I’m not sure that I fully understand this emotion, but I know that there have been numerous times in my life when I’ve felt acutely disappointed in fulfilling certain ambitions, wallowed in foolish obsessions, tirades, and bitter self-recriminations, and fallen back on the knowledge that higher awards are obtainable to the imagination. We have a tendency to think of will as some special power, Nishida writes, but in fact it’s nothing more than the experience of shifting from one mental image to another. To will something is to direct attention to it. One minute it’s soaked pants, stinging hands and the dribble of cold rain down the shin, the next it’s a mound of happy lather and a room full of steam. Warm water and open pores. A razor across the skin.
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Alligator Chalk
When we bring the outdoors indoors we expand the
brain into heartwood. A magician is anyone who forests this figure if I pull an
arabesque out of a brocaded pain. Our cardboard argues a secret. What is life?
A brass band churning in the Pacific. This lightness is heavy. Grasp the castle
gate and guide it. Anonymous as lumber (yet tall as a tendency), I correspond to
pine. Your hypothesis has passion in it, worship and trauma and pools of music.
The cement fluttered its good government by plume and harmonica. There are fish
if you don’t believe me. My morality of
sliding on the road argues bubbles. I like concentration. The fish are sparkly
our endurance is forlorn. A punch unrivalled by prospect represents five doors,
two oysters, and a constitutional monarchy. It works as if by magic, like
Schrödinger equations, those crisp little numbers that give rise to
wave-particle duality, Howdy Doody, and lapis lazuli. There is no art delivered
to humankind that has not the works of nature for their principle object,
without which they could not consist, and on which they so depend, as they
become actors and players, as it were, of what nature will have set forth. Only
the poet, disdaining to be tied to any such subjection, lifted up by the vigor
of his or her own invention, does grow in effect another nature, in making
things either better than nature brings forth, or quite anew, forms such as
never were in nature, as the Heroes, Demigods, Cyclops, Chimeras, Furies, and
such like. And that too gets a thumbs up, because the polynomials are linearly
independent, and the things that are swimming in a paragraph come to a jagged
edge of thunder where reality accords better with certain janitorial
discretions. A black holds green in opals. The physiology of a seashore sips
the sand. Eighteen blisters and a dead
nettle beam the kind of bloom that a moccasin of paint and semiabstraction abhors
to put itself into a sweat for anything but mediation. Your afternoon has
tricky eyes. Analysis and eyeballs in sly coordinates generate Apollinaire.
Build this vista on a preposition or snicker in candy. Seclude Euclid’s eyeball
in a summer resort. Here is a button. Rather be a painted incarnation of life and
strike a cab that a yellow merits. Hearing must effect a phenomenon of
sweetened sound or at least sense it. Cart category to the cartwheels. Barbell
interpretation to a pipe wrench. When we bring cotton the thing is skin. Cocoon
unfolded on a badly scabbed hand. Algebra rendered olive on the path to Technicolor,
a spectrum of art pounding harmony to bones. Here is a bottle of bourbon
eloquent as iron. Personification is amusing as a suitcase when the parlor shapes
itself into a moody conviction. Toss anything that starts to thrill at a house
on fire with garish bulbs. When shadows are pinned to consciousness the trees
are libraries. I find tutelage in eggs said the cook arriving at two p.m. on a
Friday morning. Plump the procession if they drive the sky to laughter. A
handstand circulates scratches. My phantoms are milky but our floats receive
heartfelt miscellany. What is a nation? A fist of port. We push the bolt open.
It carries an amulet. It opened its hand and said “build a great fortress.
Build it of skunk cabbage and gerunds. When it is done the world will go on
steaming, scheming, revolving in Ursprache.” This is it. This time I mean it. I
am sitting down to read a book by Raoul Vaneigem. I have scratched the excess
metal from the parts that have sounded an awakening, a nice piece of obstetrics
like “Algiers” by the Afghan Whigs, and watch as the jets gear up for the
upcoming season. Holes that are gashed in kitchen walls make you feel thick.
Oasis the eye but moose the pulse. It takes gingham to be a chirp. It is pleasant
to me that I have written using words. There are lozenges and ponds and places
of incision to be made blue for our prayer. A gargoyle is not the same as logic.
The question is: are there molecules enough in cartilage to grasp a sheet of
plywood? Is there a moral to guide our lives if the beat goes faster than the dots
in Blondie? The snake is umber, a radical construction of Hindu honey. Life makes
a smell like a novel going bone black into giddy expansion. Fiction is a
squeeze to gloss, a biology to predicate on dancing. This is why one’s drawers
are stuffed with fishing lures and silk. Those sweet experiences of adolescence
begin to blacken into the same gurgle we make later in life when the energy of
our gallantry drags itself from our age and hatches the stippled ocher of
alligator chalk on the back stoop of a Florida restaurant. It is then that a
stepladder comes to burst our daydreams into swordfish, and makes a sound like
tinfoil, or books.
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