Today, I would like to build a sentence of breath and
sand. I will begin with a principle and end with an oath. If the age demanded a
spoon I would give it a rag. But it's full of static and right wing radio
stations. The color pink spouts mud from her veins. It’s how the severity of
the color black is able to assume an aesthetic that speaks more clearly to
our crusade for the towering subtleties of the highway. The sky leans over the
horizon and brings out the textures of a more empirical reality than the one we
were promised. There are balms for our blisters, theologies for our lotus. The
cemetery confirms our anarchy. We draw analogies from the elasticity of pronouns.
From one moment to another we do not know if the chisel is a more appropriate
tool than the savagery of expectation.
When the jokes turned sour I decided to leave the group
and build another sentence. This time I would use sprockets and
paint. It was with great anxiety that I approached the canvas of life and began
the lactation of coral turnstiles. I pulled some opium from an avenue of dead
weather and offered it to the ghosts of hypothesis. They were most helpful.
Together we were able to lift the sentence into the air and give it a push. It
sailed into meaning where it spread its sails and creaked aloud when the
conjunctions scraped against one another in that great mysterious ocean of
space and time.
The buckets are carried by Buddhists. The glue is heavy.
Fortunately, most of the gas stations are open. My invocations rush aggressively into the night.
The stars pour eternity on the world. The world continues to turn. Turning is
eternal. It makes sense.
A patch of cloud walks past the moon. A shiver of bells
enlivens a Christmas display. We hear an explosion, then, minutes later,
sirens. Shards of glass reflect a ceiling of frescoed cherubs and wildflowers.
A stethoscope is pressed against a warm chest.
Isn’t that what we’ve wanted all along, to perceive the
reasons for things and events, to move them without the risk of the real and
effortlessly understand them?
Negation,
deferred inasmuch as it is born from the abyss, causes the subject to bounce.
Christmas
is an entirely different situation, requiring presents and generosity, a sense
of community, a little hypocrisy, fakery, diplomacy, netsuke and spices from
the netherworld.
Who
wouldn’t want to travel in a rocket ship to Mars?
Palm
Springs, maybe.
We
can land by the side of a pool. The ghost of Bob Hope will greet us at the
gate. He will bring us the balm of humor, which resides in the heart, alongside
regret, which is cousin to the counselors of pain.
Maybe
Bob Hope is a bad example. Maybe pain is a bad example.
Examples
of what? They are examples of pain, existence, angst, the open enrollment of
everything perceptible, the registration of the universe on our nerves,
planets, stars, mezzanines and treadles of spinning potter’s clay. Open
enrollment is a euphemism, a misapplied optimism that would also include its
opposite, the flip side of the coin, a full spectrum of pain and pleasure and
everything in between. There are torques and flywheels, hoists and
trajectories. A closer description might be the Twisted Colossus of Six Flags
Magic Mountain in Santa Clarita, California, which is a Möbius Loop roller
coaster with a zero-g roll and a top gun stall.
The
Palace of Pain beggars description. You must have pain, or a memory of pain in
order to take its measure. There’s no morality to pain, though one may be
provided, given sufficient time for thought and meditation. This is how pain
fuels creativity, semantic cartography, and playing the harmonica. Sometimes
there are symbols and ikons to help with the process. For example, a legato in
a Beethoven violin concerto, or the hot dog rotator at 7-11.
There’s
a shrine in the corner of the library. This is where sensations refine
themselves into hieroglyphs of voluptuous energy. I could use this as an
example, but it’s already in use. We should step away quietly and stand on the
porch and listen to the rain.
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