An Early Evening In Late March

My considered harm is to be a compass. To greenhouse into mirrors makes the incident olfactory. It is better to sand the swell than sway in tergiversation. My ochre hustles the crust forward, where it might breathe, and become translucent. I write it through the jug. The tension generates us to poke, and to polish the bloom at the lip of its husk. It will always be muscle that herds the aerodrome geese. Elbows help me think. It comes easier when my head is supported by swans. I feel a slipping of the guts after a rain. I rise, and advance by instigation. Movement plays an invaluable role among the goldfish. Jane Austen sits at her desk designing a blowtorch. Tiny languages pelt the window. What to attract to my essential need is a frequent problem. If it isn’t Jane Austen, it must be something else. In order to generate sleep, we do push-ups. We do them on the ceiling. Our wings grow out of the calculations used to explore a feeling. Time and again the words build a mighty grammar. If you give me a baseball bat I will feel it inside this sentence. There are no speed limits within the fourth dimension. Just persuasion, and corollaries. 

Time itself feels suspended. It’s an early evening in late March. Soon to be April. There are repeated volleys of thunder, which hardens the muscle, and precipitates cheese. I do like ataraxia, but this isn’t the weather for that. We put yoga mats on the car windows in case it hails. One must assist that sunlight under the skin or lose it to progress. Even when times were vertical we brushed them with stunning bikinis to make them shine horizontally. Concentrating on the harmonica helps perforate the time. I like the expansion of the concertina more for the radical pleasure of its boil than the gleam of its civility. As for me, I love the sound of thunder. It’s the music of chaos. Crustaceans gaze at a champagne cork. Waves swell, crest, and crash on the shore. I’ve seen it all before. The first light of dawn crawling over the cabbage. The waitress coming to the table with a pot of coffee. The trickle beneath the bronze is sign of fever. Don’t let it confuse you. Just point to the item on the menu and say that’s it, that’s what I want. And if she answers that’s what everybody wants, smile, and shape your voice into a bouquet of snapdragon.

Undulations of any sort arouse my interest. If I swallow the sun when the scales break I can place some candy behind the horizon for entertainment. It’s all about waves. You should structure your door so it may open to a visceral thought. Everything is always so counterclockwise. If you pull hard enough the spirits will quack. I can feel it. Can you? The constant glimmer of details. Have you ever felt like you were standing in a room alone by a window reading a letter? If you can paint the sound of fire you can box a suede syncopation in a humble velocity. I’ve seen such things happen. Palominos crest a hill. Hummingbirds thunder in a courtyard. Howlin’ Wolf walk into Sun Records for the first time. The bohemian universe attacks a dilemma with pullulation and jokes. Notice what a nipple does during nerves. There are indentations on the furniture that brawl in the light when the curtains open. And there are moments when the present fills with the past so intensely they switch places and pluck romance out of the air. The surrounding dystopia retreats into the shadows. And Mary Shelley walks in.

 

Lost In Space

R comes in to tell me the astronauts stranded in the space station for 286 days splashed down near the Florida coast. And I wonder what that felt like to be trapped in space all that time and then touch down on earth and breathe fresh, atmospheric air again. Like that time I went to prison as part of a writer’s group that visited inmates and talked about writing and literature and a few hours later when we exited the prison how lushly detailed and sensuous the world seemed, as if I hadn’t been paying sufficient attention the whole time I’d been alive.

I used to get that feeling in my dad’s workshop when I came home to visit from California. The smell of freshly sawn wood mingled with the shine of chisels and the powwow of pipe clamps on the wall. Even radios sound different in workshops; they sound like a voice healing the language with diction, even though everything said is a lie or a fib or a gross distortion it serves the energy of the language. Because it’s a calliope of nuclear syllables and opens the gate to oxymorons. Sparkling inconsistencies. Haunting mascaraed eyes. West Virginia garage sales. 

We’re used to thinking about space as the setting in which a number can precisely measure the distance between two points. A point in space can be unequivocally characterized as a collection of three numbers (x, y, z) on three axes. It can also be described as a large, roomy pavilion with lattice walls admitting breezes from every quarter of the compass, or the flaming gold sunset over the Columbia river gorge in August, 1988 when Bob Dylan sang “I Shall Be Released,” or that moment in the summer of 1964 when my chute opened and I dangled in the sky, marveling at the Skagit Valley, and the bird flying under me.

The architecture of doubt excites our flapping. We nap in the high vaulted ceilings of the Renaissance. Because we’re bats. And sound the world with radar. I’m pinging off a bank of hills right now, feeling the shape of the landscape, allowing my desires to become music, and echo their elaborate schemes.

Clouds are machines for bringing rain to the earth. We can do that, can’t we? Float. Drift. Clump. Piss on the ground.

I carved the electricity myself, using a jackknife and a rock.

You may have noticed I now wear hearing aids and suspenders. I’m at that age. Timelessness gets embryonic near the promenade. But here it’s just a clock. And embodies a principle of tea.

My intentions tremble in sympathy. This is my seminal ebony, the moment when they wake up the balcony, and we launch ourselves into anonymity, breaking chaos into bits of inertia.

I only use overdrive if I’m captured by the moonlight and have a hard time keeping my eyes on the road and my hands on the wheel. I believe there’s a formula for this. Tools. Exercises. Operations. Procedures. Handsprings. Somersaults. Cartwheels. Walking upside-down on a chair while singing the national anthem. It always works best in the nude. I don’t know why. Some things come alive via the magic of permeation. Being. And the trickle of verisimilitude.

Space is an abstract concept that describes the relationships between objects and the forces that act upon them, and is the framework within which all physical phenomena occur, acting as the "stage" upon which events in the universe unfold. In other words, space is the three-dimensional expanse in which all matter exists. Which is why it’s so easy to get lost in space. There’s so much furniture.

Getting lost is no easy matter. I got lost once with some friends in a forest of eucalyptus near Santa Cruz, California. I can’t remember how we managed to find our way out. Maybe we didn’t. Maybe, in some sense, I’m still surrounded by eucalyptus, imaginary eucalyptus, abstract emissions of sexual syntax which defy mahogany and ramble along in a trajectory of hasty incisions in the fabric of space and time. I can sometimes hear the murmur of stars in a canopy of canvas, bright maniacal colors chained to a linguistic engine in a glimpse of delirium. It could also be the lobby to a hotel in Deadwood, South Dakota. I can often identity a location by the number of chandeliers or the clash between meanings in an allegory of punching bags and sweat.

But please. Let’s not get carried away. Language can only do so many things. It works by magic, we know that, but its movements are similar to that of the Komodo dragon, which uses a variety of libidinal adjectives to describe Cézanne, and can attain a speed of thirty turtles an hour. One would be well served to use language carefully, and with a view toward celerity and chiaroscuro.

Space is to language what language is to clouds. Participles participate in this clasp as it anchors. You can walk over there to greet a Cubist. There, in this context, references a staircase built to resemble the staircase of the Loretto Chapel in Santa Fe, New Mexico, which spirals in 360 degree turns with no visible means of support, and looks like a DNA molecule made of spruce. If you happen to slide into the house of yourself as if by magic, you can always slide back out again if you use a bald excuse and a nearby shrub to use as a prop. Life is essentially theater. We’ve known that all the time, and yet I continually forget my lines, and stub my toe on the magazine stand. My biology does not allow for flying or hanging from the ceiling folded in my wings. I do have a certain position in bed that launches me into hypnopompic carnivals, and echolocation and songs. My more considered view requires a compass, because there is a curve to space, and cranberries and sewing kits. It helps to be experimental. Even better to be in touch. 

 

I Live In The Real World Now

Prowling the depths is my failure, not yours. You're too hard on yourself. You should read Henry Miller. He makes poverty look like brandy. The ability to make yourself at home anywhere is a huge criterion. It all depends on how much one is willing to tolerate the wallpaper. I painted a scratch of it against a squiggle of wind and the tangible became emphatic. Musical, even, like love-in-the-mist. Sensations can be rampant, even in old age. Sometimes overwhelming. My left knee yearns for the feel of ermine. But the rest of my body is devoted to rain. I like the feel of it on bare skin. The saunas of Finland are a good place to start spanking yourself with a bundle of birch twigs. It stimulates blood circulation and releases a fresh birch aroma. My slap was meant to awaken your inner subversive. Again. I can’t stress this too much. Read Henry Miller.

Or Anselm Hollo. Now there’s a poet who knows how to bend an intentionality into things that are unintended, but wonderful, like hallucinations, or the northern lights. He knows how to sit and listen to someone while their eyes glitter. He knows how to turn on the lights in order to make it dark outside. He can address his friends while sleeping. He has all the markings of a poet. You can see them through two layers of glass at the far end of the restaurant, where he sits eating lasagna and whose head is a glob of light.

I live in the real world now, which is disenchanted and drab. I’m not staying here long. Just long enough to get a paycheck. As soon as I’m off work I enter another dimension. I enter the non-work dimension. Which is a streaming service brought to me by spiritual frequencies.

On the way home, I see a crow land on a high wire between a gibbous moon and a jet approaching Sea-Tac. I think it might be a sign. If I were a prophet I might be able to interpret it. Utter that one little word ‘if,’ and you raise the hypothetical into actionable being. How much does Schubert Sonata by Mark Di Suvero weigh? My car keys feel like extrusions of gray light. We all have an infinite pocket we visit with our fingers from time to time. I envision Joseph Cornell at a garage sale. He finds a snow globe containing a thyroid gland. My thesis swallows it and it oozes triiodothyronine. I can’t stop tragedies from happening, nobody can, but something has to be done about American history. It’s time to start my hiatus. There’s a chair over there and I may just sit in it. After I finish sanding the mind of a cranberry. And doing the dishes and taking out the garbage and gazing at the spectacle before me a ten-foot-tall clarinet summoning the angels with a sonata in e minor. I’m branching out. I’m putting down roots. I’m running to the indicative to stop the breakage of stems. I’m knitting a speckle with a Heckel bassoon.

The Milky Way smells of rum, raspberries and hot chocolate. One million earths could fit inside the sun. But try to put that in the overhead compartment. If we put consciousness in a box the result is often imprecise. Consciousness has a tendency to raise the dead. It can get a little edgy. It’s why I like to permit things. It gives me the illusion of control. I authorize the tin man to dance like Fred Astaire. And he does, bringing forth pandemonium negative space and winter. Everybody has to jump over an abyss at some point. I play Blueberry Hill on a peach harmonica. And a minute later I get a call from Mick Jagger. He will give a million dollars to never play the peach harmonica again. But I can’t help it. I can’t hold out. It’s got to be done. It’s got to be said. Life is weird among the dead. Sing the dead. All the way from Saturn. Which smells of amaretto.

It’s time to go home now. This is where the pedal meets the metal. Everything hurts like a gospel. King Kong breaks his chains and leaps from the stage. It was meant to be. Tear up Montmartre do what tear up time tear up space rip it up rip it all up. The poem never finds the right angry vapors to make the air feel stupid. And the clouds are mostly picnic areas and spoons. I fooled you world. I’m still listening to the Doors. Weird scenes in the gold mine. I wish I’d written that. Before AI gobbles it up. And spits it out in a university classroom. I’m lost. Lost in space. You can find it through wandering. Liberation. Salvation. Absolution. And then lose it again. And go looking for it again. In a different place. And a different time. And a different body. And a different set of circumstances. The light sweetens at the end, regardless of the tune. 

Running

I love running. I love the exhilaration of running, the elevation of mood, the euphoric charge of unfettered movement. Any time I find myself caught up in stressful speculations or dreary ruminations, running pulls me out of the muck and sets me back on solid ground. It takes my mind off the nonsense and puts me back in my body, where I belong. Sometimes it takes a mile, sometimes two, but gradually the mind-numbing miasmas of brooding and worry dissipate, and the invigorating immediacies of wind and cloud and sunlight and frost get my full attention. The space between my ears gains clarity. Relentless gloom turns rowdy.

I started running when I was 45. It was a complete surprise. I’d never been athletic. Not in grade school. Not in high school. Not on planet Earth. I spent my adolescence lounging and lollygagging whenever I could, reading books like Brave New World and Dharma Bums and Tropic of Cancer and getting high on rock and whiskey when time and luck and opportunity triangulated on the weekends. It was a long adolescence. I only recently felt its last little tremor quietly vanish in a bubbly, wistful poof. Age 45, middle age, was a renaissance. In 1986, after my second divorce, I went into a clinical depression. With the help of some meds and therapy I became quite friendly with Bacchus once again. Alcoholism is a darn sight better than depression, but its fatiguing, and saps your life energy. I have to hand it to Charles Bukowski. That guy had stamina. I quit drinking in 1990 and began attending AA meetings. I loved the AA meetings. I discovered how much I like to talk. Conversation is the next best thing to sex. And combined with sex, it is most certainly at the top of the hit parade.

Two years later, in 1992, I quit smoking. And that’s when the running began. I started out doing a couple of miles, then increased my distance to about six miles. I had a beautiful run that went from the crowded, narrow streets of Seattle’s Capitol Hill district up a gentle slope to the broad lawns and stately, 1890 ambiance of Volunteer Park down to the narrow road winding its way through the heavily wooded serenity of Interlaken, cross 23^rd street, segue into the arboretum, and loop around to home again. I was doing this at 5:00 in the morning, so it was quite serene, with no traffic, just me and the raccoons.

And now I’m 77. Still running, though the running has begun to feel a little more critical, a little more urgent, and a little more strenuous. I’ve learned how to avoid overuse injuries, which put frustrating holes in my running routine. I’ve always got a bit of runner’s knee – also known as patellofemoral pain syndrome (PFPS) - is a chronic pain in and around the kneecap. I had it so bad once following a half-marathon that I was limping like Walter Brennan in The Real McCoys. Unfortunately, nobody younger than 70 will get that allusion. But maybe you can find it on YouTube. Crotchety Walter Brennan as Grandpa Amos McCloy grinning and limping into the TV screen. That was me limping down Mercer Street at the finish of the half-marathon. Crotchety old me dreaming of one day catching up to Mick Jagger.

The stubbornest overuse injury was peroneal tendonitis, an inflammation of the peroneal tendons, which run along the outside of the ankle and help stabilize the foot. I took eight weeks off from running and iced and massaged the afflicted area at the edge of my foot, but it persisted. I made an appointment with a podiatrist who X-rayed my foot and turned it from side to side and emphasized the importance of running shoes, and taking time off. I told him I’d been in the habit of running every day of the week. He suggested I start with a running schedule of two days on and one day off. Later, I can try running three days, two days off, or three days on, one day off. See how it goes. The important thing is to give your body time to recover. Damaged muscle tissue needs to be repaired. The cells need to disassemble old or damaged cell parts and use whatever is salvageable to create new cells. It’s called cellular recycling. There’s also mitosis, the generation of cells that are genetically identical to one another. He returned to the subject of running shoes and recommended two brands, which he scribbled on the back of a prescription form, which made it an official prescription, which I handed to the clerk at the shoe store, who went in the back and brought a pair of elegant ghosts (Ghost is a shoe brand) and invited me to try them on and do a little jog outside to get a feel of them. They felt fine, lighter and thinner than my regular shoes, which have good support, but don’t distribute weight properly. I’m not an expert on the engineering of the human foot – a subject that fascinates me – and neither am I a good judge of shoe engineering. But whatever the dynamic is, my new high end running shoes, my Ghosts, had a decidedly salubrious effect. My foot was feeling better within a week. I liked the new schedule, too. On my day off I began a dumbbell routine. I enjoy lifting dumbbells. I feel an affinity to them. The brand name is Ethos. Ethos dumbbells.

But it’s still running I love best. Outdoors with open sky and crows and robins and hummingbirds and sparrows and the geese down by Lake Union expands the mind. Mind and sky seem like the same thing. The same energy. The same mists and mountains of air.

Every time I commit to going for a run, I make it a point of pride to never change my mind and go back. There’s a joy in being a little Spartan. Intemperate weather can be invigorating. I’ve been hailed upon and snowed upon and poured upon. Today was different. It was cold—about 43 degrees—and pouring rain. March rain. That rain that’s been spurred by winter and whipped by the wind. It’s a mean rain. Inconsiderate. Downright sassy. Penetrates the skin. Kisses the bones.

A few weeks earlier, R - my wife - had been ravaged by an intense respiratory virus. She coughed nonstop for over a week. Watching her slowly get better was a great relief. We’re both getting on in years. I was afraid of contracting the same illness, which could be fatal. A few months previous to R’s illness, in late August, after passing a kidney stone, I caught a respiratory virus that sent my temperature soaring to 104 degrees. R stripped the covers and blankets off the bed and covered my naked body with towels soaked in icy water. This got my temperature down to a 101-degrees. It took at least two weeks to recover from that bug.

Running strengthens the immune system. But there’s a limit to that, and that limit becomes increasingly apparent with age. It’s a situation I liken to that moment late at night when a bar closes and the bartender turns the lights on and off, which shatters that pleasant state of Dionysian insouciance with the leaden inevitability of closing time. Always a bummer. Mortality sucks. Mortality is another kind of bar. No booze. No bartender. But the flus and broken bones and rashes and dimmed vision and diminished hearing of senescence are the lights of the bar turning on and off. It’s closing time. The problem is, I’m not ready to leave yet. Deep down, there’s a twinkling little light, a stirring, an agitation, a rebellious quickening of nerve. And there it is. My adolescence again.

R and I generally run together. We’ve been running together for 30 years. Lately, she’s had to take a break. On December 26^th, as we were running down the sidewalk running parallel to Mercer, she got distracted by some crows, tripped, and felt flat on her face, breaking a molar, scraping her chin and inflaming her facial muscles. She needed a dentist, tout de suite. Our normal dentist did not provide an emergency service. He suggested we go to the emergency room. But emergency rooms don’t have dentists. We called another dentist and got a message suggesting an emergency dentist in downtown Seattle. We called and were able to get in that same day. Several hours later, after some screaming, the dentist managed to get the molar out in five pieces, which he later showed me, describing how difficult it had been to remove. The good news was that she hadn’t broken any bones or injured any joints. The bad news was the number of weeks it took for the inflammation to go down. She took several months off from running and has started again running with me again. Somewhat gingerly at first, of course.

Sunday, March 16th. We go for a run. The air is crisp and invigorating. R is doing well. She's able to keep up with me, which makes me glad. Very glad. We've been enduring a lot of anxiety lately, due to the savage cuts that the president has been making on federal programs like Medicaid, and Medicare, and now even Social Security. We feel very precarious. Nothing in the public domain feels remotely under our control or influence. The country doesn't feel stable. A rug has been pulled out from under our feet. Running isn’t a panacea, but it does help you keep on your feet during times of unrest and volatility. It’s one of the few things over which we have choice and agency. And – unlike skiing or parasailing - it’s relatively inexpensive. The shoes can get a little pricey, but apart from that, all you need is the will, the time, and a pair of feet.

Wild And Weird And Hungry

This is trembling. This is climbing into you. A sentence. A thought. Purple damask by enkindling it with your eyes. Bright light in a drugstore. Grace crashes into a bundle of comic books. Cosmopolitan. Vanity Fair. Maire Claire. What a fashion is exhibited next to the tailor. Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue. Naked iron percussion. Snow.

Let us now exceed the sniff of amazement and rise into ponderation. Charming behind stilts, the dynamic parody of shoes plunges into trigonometry. Animatron Ezra Pound shuffles forward. He offers to shake your hand. If you raise an embryonic comma, this will secure a pause in a sentence as yet unwritten. Words are compelling. They demand utterance, and writing, and megaphones. A magisterial bearing. A savage devotion. A deepening sense of fungus. Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds. Jokes told in a hurry. I’m nailing my boil down as an impatient example of something I haven’t thought of yet. I’m waiting for the words to get here. Compliments wing the fiddle. It’s all about husbandry. And cabbage. The words are here now. Pulsing like a tortilla.

Opposites I flirt with growl their logic, and they become a song. What kind of whisper builds life with an indentation? Have you ever been stabbed by a woman’s eyes? All my responses to life have been like this lately. Nothingness bruises my syncopation with my own biology. Think of it as a nipple haunted by your own initiative. Hope hears the quixotic but not the chronology. Some men look like they could fix a sink. Others don’t. Heave this hammer against the milieu: if it hits a nail, the calliope will expand your clutch. Former inabilities will become billboards. Past associations will become banquets. Life provides us with a construction to carry. Some have wheels. Some have cuticles. See which gets there quicker. The bike with the pounding pistons, or the sad horns riding over the chatter.

My dismissal of orthogonal control forms the landscape. That little acreage I call my own here. This place of planting. This place of seeding. This place of revolt and metaphor. Various tumultuous symptoms indicate the presence of bias. I try hard to maintain some objectivity, the success of which largely depends on fiction, the kind of things one tells oneself when principles are at stake, and the pursuit of adventure unfurls in sumptuous Technicolor. William Burroughs sitting on a Kansas yard in a lawn chair. Hands clasped together. Musing. There was never a better time for resetting the clock and refining one’s sense of inertia. Redefining. Better way to put it. Circulate thought with exultation. Everybody loves a tidepool. Grasp something offshore and misty when the world grows hard and emphatic. Bring it home. Hose it down. Give it a name. Set it down gently on the landscape and watch it take off, wild and weird and hungry. 

 

A Sad Development: The Erosion Of Free Speech During A Time Of Crisis

Does it make sense to write poetry when the world has grown this delirious? When people are being arrested for protesting a genocide?

The erosion of free speech has been brutal. There’s now a big hole in the language and all sorts of demons are rushing out. Demons of fear. Demons of greed. Demons of isolation. Demons of secrecy and sectarian taboos. Demons of arbitrary destruction. Demons of oil. Blood diamond demons in luxury hotels. Demons of grime and Mammon. Demons of fraud. Demons of genocidal denial. Demons of linguistic sepsis. Organ failure. System failure. Heart failure.

It's a sad development. And we were warned. We were warned by books and movies. We were warned by the philosophers and scientists of the age.

They told us that war is stupid and vile and a racket for the rich. They told us that it takes courage to live and courage to die. That life and death are one and the same and that everything appears and disappears. That change is constant. That everything is in flux. That emperors come and emperors go. That it is better to hide ignorance, but difficult to do this over wine.

They told us the universe began as an extremely dense and hot point that rapidly expanded outwards, creating the universe we observe today, the roosters crowing at dawn on Kauai, the cry of seagulls over the waves of Puget Sound, the bulbous head of a harbor seal gazing at the stream of people on the walkway, the alignment of Mercury, Venus, and Mars in early March, viewed from the sidewalk in front of the 5 Spot Café, the James Webb Space Telescope finding a black hole in the galaxy CEERS 1019, which formed only 570 million years after the Big Bang, and is unusual because it's relatively small, weighing only 9 million times the mass of the sun. Ancient galaxies, supermassive black holes, and nebulae. Globular clusters. Stellar Streams. And life on earth with fields of lavender in Provence and old barns in Wyoming, bull sharks off the coast of Zambezi and spurts of afternoon rain on the sidewalks of Brooklyn. TV. YouTube videos. Nina Simone. Billie Holiday. Carl Sagan hosting Cosmos. All manifestations of the universe. The death of a warrior. The birth of a star.

We’re aware of the universe surrounding us. We’re aware of the universe within us. We’re aware that each of us is an issuance of the universe. Ergo, we’re the universe self-aware of itself as a universe. The universe studying the universe. Which is a stunning implication. Consciousness is an inherent property of the universe. Consciousness is me typing these words and consciousness is the sun squeezing hydrogen atoms to make heat and light. Consciousness is to speech what speech is to the heat and light of the mind, boundless within a sphere of bone.  

Quantum entanglement, where particles can be linked across vast distances, could explain how consciousness might be interconnected throughout the universe. Some scientists conjecture that quantum processes, including entanglement, might help us explain the brain’s seemingly infinite ability to find relationships between things, between ideas and concepts, between waves and wind and the distant chatter of background radiation, the residue of the Big Bang.

We are, emphatically, interconnected. Every tribe, nation, country, clan, progeny, dynasty, scion, house, society, lineage, language: interconnected. Every time someone kills someone part of that someone dies with their victim.

Language parallels the evolution of species, sudden spurts of linguistic speciation rather than steady accumulations of change, thus proving Kerouac’s bop prosody and the inherent capacity of words to leap into longer and wider trajectories, dilations of thought that follow the dilations of the universe, and lead to invention and engrossing amusements, the non-linear, quantum leap of the mind unfettered by dogma, by doctrine, by state propaganda. There’s a natural exhilaration in conversation that reveals the pulse at the core of things. The giddy pleasure of allowing one’s speculations to manifest and reveal themselves in a free flow of speech is itself wildly evidenced in the eruptions and expansions of the universe, of gravitational waves undulating with the fabric of spacetime as they propagate outwards, creating suns and planets and asteroids and moons.

So how does it happen that a language shuts down? That certain words be excluded from speech? That opposing narratives can get people detained at airports, or arrested and thrown into prison? You can’t stop a universe from being a universe. And you can’t stop the truth from being the truth by forbidding certain speech. The powerful are always fearful of losing their power. They maintain power by controlling narratives. Surrounding themselves with mythologies that conform with nothing in reality, but chain the mind and tongue to a false empire maintained by force. The universe goes on expanding. The universe doesn’t stop being a universe. It’s out there. And it’s in here. Here in these words. And the breath that gives them meaning and motion.

Welcome To My Daydream

I try to make my clothing as evocative as possible. It’s because the sunlight has an elsewhere in it. And nowhere else to go. Nothing jams a zipper like rust. In the old days, when the blackberries appeared on the vine, and a simple forelock could sustain a veranda, we did the mashed potato. This was before the furrows held water. I know differently now. I can nullify our assumptions with a piccolo. Go push a desk. I mouth hawks during chivalry. Sound is to glass what gas is to quandary. Another offspring due to femininity. Most of my feelings are auburn, and being somewhat of an expert on daydreaming, this isn’t the first wall I’ve walked into. What wall, one might well ask. There is no wall. And to that I say welcome, welcome to my daydream.

The depth it takes to hold a spoon is watery. It wanders through me like a sentence. I push, I accept, we adapt. The sentence readjusts. It becomes a celebration. The surrounding greenery signals its doctrine of chlorophyll. The pitcher in the middle fills with detail. Gorgeous from every angle, my thermostat is torn between absurdism and quantum entanglement. The room is never too hot or cold it’s always fissionable. The algebra there is always in upheaval. Picasso’s teasing asserts a giddy acceleration. It was the summer I climbed below gravity to find some curriculum. Wet with fascination, a chronology jaywalks across a wasteland in search of a worry. Paradise reflects the grass this thunders. We send all the cocoons we groom to Nineveh.

I scribble an impiety in grease next to the shop of improbable shapes. A woman comes out and tells me that faith is the fog of a long disquiet. I engorge with equilibrium. I tell her I’m waiting for a religion to materialize. This is the hunger walking around in me seeking solidarity. I skim a staircase during onions. And suddenly, out of nowhere, an olive appears. Clearly, garnishment sends its radar out to map our intentions. Everything hinges on accelerants. The next step I take will determine the course of my ascent. Either I shoot right up, or the sheen of my sweat will pack a mighty railroad. I'll know what to do when the time comes. I adjust my anonymity. I feel lucky. The epilogue remains speechless.

This much I know: I need to learn how to transform data into actionable insights. Otherwise, what’s the whole point of the mackerel? Let the mind exceed its ideas of scale and trigonometry to stimulate one’s improvisations. I shall continue my painting drop by drop until it perceives a loophole, allowing me to walk into a different performance. Meanwhile I’m going to stop all the candles until my adulthood arrives. There’s a cactus that awakens the climate. We won't need a wide-eyed vein antenna. But we will need a thought to dangle over the abyss of our flatulence. I will get some clay for my insistence on yardarms and spars. Something needs to be done. Every pulse adheres to a specific muscle. We pound our blood with foreboding. There’s a curve in our proposal that is silly with grouse. How much longer need I point to the sky? Don't bang a fingernail to spite the cat. It all works out in the end.