Wednesday, June 1, 2022

Doing Life With Tigers

 

Up in the Rockies snow glows in the moonlight down here on the plains it’s raining I’m waiting for spring signs of spring glimmers of spring tremors of spring tinctures of spring translations of spring I’ve begun collecting old decks of cards and playing poker with ghosts in a saloon of the mind the joker acts as an ace Spinoza produces a royal flush downs a shot of whiskey and mutters the entire universe is God it’s still raining crows shake their bodies I’m convinced of these sensations I see a ponderosa pine mimic the structure of reality life is largely atmosphere convulsing with winds we can endure it or howl at it like King Lear sometimes there are choices in life and sometimes it’s hard to garnish the truth with perfumed stationary

Is that a handstand I think it can set things straight once the blood rushes to the head snakes usurp the intent of one’s legs I see my voice rippling in the air like wave clouds

Here’s something an ear of corn on a stalk of writing that’s what all this is ganglions spitting the textures of thought reflective equilibrium is a small house in Oslo the beards and bones of Viking kings a stalk of talk on a stick of glitter the central problem of cosmogony is to explain how something came from nothing flamingos in flight over the Andes

Particles and antiparticles bubbling up out of the vacuum of space is part of it but there’s also interrelation no word is a word until it extends from the mouth to the chemistry of life and creates a wider universe like say a drive across Mississippi emissions like semen cypresses swaying in Louisiana celery is an emblem of grace the tattoo of a turtle crawling down my arm a length of wood for a door to the fourth dimension it smells like big long vowels in a house of language can you hear it jingling in my elbow

Sometimes in a dream you can cast a mirror in horse dung at first all goes well but then the mold cracks under the intense heat and molten metal flows out across the floor exploding flagstones sending them caroming off the ceiling and at the last minute you manage to fly

Those courts in medieval Europe what were they all up to were they the Davos of the time some days I feel like I’m in a time warp completely out of step with everything with nowhere to go no one to talk to all my friends dead and gone loss is a powerful emotion I have days of inquiry and days of long speculation incessant exhibitions of thought bronze moth incised with jewels flying from the mouth of a poet in Ethiopia

Once I had a bed outdoors I watched time attract the timeless stars and felt the air lush as an overture the very smell of it too big to squeeze into meaning

Thousands of Zoom readings later has anyone imagined being an anemone in a tidepool I think these words could cause a milky nebulosity to morph into the lights of Las Vegas as the sky limps westward using shadows as a crutch and an aging rock musician at Planet Hollywood struggles to reach a high note because language leaves a residue

Who invented varnish who invented the windshield wiper who invented syntactic calculus we all did & there it is language creating an old gas station drama beneath the chassis of a Plymouth adamancy has been abandoned for adaptation but not here no sir if you know these hills you’ll know what I’m saying we’re all wandering through an experience and each ramification needs a spark of truth to light the fire and burn off and reveal something even deeper let’s call it a dark granting us the privacy to commune with tigers

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