The hive is on hiatus but the bees are at it until
the dawn convulses on the lawn. The brushwork gargles pencils and the harlequin
spits red. It’s one of those kinds of motels. There are spirits in the
limestone. Accordions in the curtain. Odors in the bedsprings and an airport on
my tongue. You can change a circumference but you can’t change pi.
And here I am driving an ultramarine submarine down
Santa Monica Boulevard. The debris of my emotional life is deformed and
trumpeted. When I walk in the rain, it seems as if the news is made of gauze
and the world is so crazy that even the night wears a blindfold.
I like to dive into books. My eyebrows grasp the
forehead of meaning and everything turns upside down. Meaning is always reversible.
Metaphors are reversible. Reversibility is reversible. Every little word beats
my lip until the components of meaning waddle around like gaudy explanations
and write themselves into weather and empire.
Motion has its severity. The brush is goopy with
blue. Even the leaves have turned into prophesies. They will fall. Each one
will fall. And they know it. How do I know they know it? Knowledge can be hypothetical,
yes. But is it still knowledge? Some things I know by touch, some by reason.
Knowledge is what you know, said Gertrude Stein. I know that the boiling point
of water is 212 degrees Fahrenheit, or 100 degrees Celsius. I know that
sunlight has no weight but that an equivalent mass for its energy can be
roughly determined by the average radiation flux incident on the earth’s
surface multiplied by one half of the area of the earth. The formula E=mC2 will
thus yield an answer of 2.8 kilograms, albeit measured as seconds, not weight.
I know what time Café Vita opens at the bottom of
the hill, and how much it will hurt if I punch the wall. I do not know under
what circumstances I may want to punch the wall, but I do know that a feeling
of something vague and ineffable can drive a poem to paradise, and if, under
the right conditions, a palomino can be trained to embody the Noosphere of
Vienna, and stream out of a human heart in a pink cloud of mutual aspirations,
and whispered dreams and murmured endeavors, and prayers and pledges and
bizarre confessions uttered in anesthetic bliss, then the collective conscience
of Grindavik, Iceland will approach the sanguine magnitude of a pumpkin.
How do I know it? I just know it. I hear it in the
wind. I see it in the glow of birch on a Rocky Mountain slope. I see it in the
feathers of the crow. I hear it in the wisteria. I taste it in my cinnamon roll. I smell it at
the border. I feel it reaching out of my sternum.
Poor Texas. So much distance, so much grandeur, yet
so little zucchini. You must garden what chords you can on a Martin N20. This is
open to interpretation, of course, because there will always be those for whom
the Fauve movement was just plain silly, and those for whom it was wildly exhilarating.
See how calculus ruins everything? I am prodigal with resilience. Until I’m out
of resilience. Glue is a purpose unto itself. It is its own sticky teleology.
This is not a mere metaphysics that touches the heart. This is a call for welding.
Think of it as a lamp mounted on the front of a copula. The sleeves are for
emphasis. If you find yourself grimacing in the middle of this sentence, then
the mailbox is correct, and setting the washer for an extra rinse cycle is the
appropriate thing to do. Your grimace will be returned UPS.
The path adapts to the irregularities of the
mountain. Amber provides a refuge for the eyes. My reticence to speak was
squashed like meadow flowers under a raging medieval battle. The clang of
metal, the abdication of kings. I lost all restraint and said things I later regretted
but so quickly forgot that it didn’t matter until someone reminded me, and then
I had to shoot that person. Think of this as a moody reality eating oats from
the hand of propinquity. Fractions are sometimes plump. Fragments are wholly
partial.
The siege cannot continue under these conditions.
Something must be found to keep the salt and pepper shakers filled. There is a
weird coherence to the napkins, and the propellers are flashing principles of
motion at the grease.
Death is a caboose, pathos for a tie. I wander the
world ravenous for experience. Jingle your intuition. Sneeze on a rock. There
is a hit song for every potato. Even the thumb has a parameter. I think of
coffee as the engine that causes me to flex my muscles and experiment with history.
Packing a suitcase is an art. You’re in trouble if
you fill it with lobsters. You will arrive at your destination and regret that
you did not bring enough enthusiasm. Throw yourself into it anyway, whatever
‘it’ turns out to be. Sometimes ‘it’ is just a pronoun, but even then, it’s
important to decorate the room with something sidereal and paradigmatic. Insects
are good for medicine and also make lovely pets, though you may substitute a
crustacean. Nudity is a custom served best with clothes.
All the totems during our journey strained to evade
definition. We saw stains on a blanket metaphorical as a crackling fire and two
episodes of Rawhide on TV. We saw minerals push the mountains into the sky and
men and women go around in hats with quixotic plumes. All in all, I would say the hiatus was a success,
though our chauffeur turned mournful as a SCUBA diver, and that was uncalled
for. Wearing a hot suit and oxygen tanks in the midst of heavy Manhattan
traffic is bound to make anyone crabby.
Hinduism is optional. All those semi-nude sculptures
making love are seamless as rhythm on a drum. There were peculiarities of
aluminum in the shaded picnic area, but the plywood nipple urged conference and
plunged us into the surf of conversation, visceral and fresh as a detour.
I just want to say, I relate completely to coffee. It
helps me trickle into life and seek abstraction. I cannot describe a calliope
without a little pulchritude, and a pulley or two. The world is coiled in
destiny like a loaf of French bread. I think they call it a baguette. I can’t
tell you how the leavening of evil is purged by singing, but the bread can
speak for itself.
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