The
wind takes what it wants and deposits it elsewhere. Whoever has owned a flying
carpet is familiar with this effect. You don’t always go where you want to go.
You don’t always arrive at the destination you had in mind. Movement is sometimes
a joy, sometimes a great exposition. A 10,000-pound tractor in Harding County
South Dakota sitting in 14-inch high crested wheat grass was hoisted straight
into the air by a tornado and deposited, in pieces, a mile and a half away in
Montana. This would tend to indicate a presence in the air, a movement whose
predilections are as capricious as they are enigmatic.
Our
interpretations of this world are often overstated and misleading. What can
anyone say? Nobody understands this planet. Nobody understands this life. If
they did, we wouldn’t be in this predicament. Thanks to the many heat engines
that comprise civilization and its emissions of methane and carbon dioxide, the
atmosphere is a complete mess, jets streams meandering in tropospheric chaos creating
climactic havoc all over the planet, drought in England, murderous heat waves
in Japan, forest fires in Sweden, tornados of fire in northern California. Typhoons,
monsoons, hurricanes and cyclones howling through our cities like merciless
banshees. Crops failing, the sea rising, the ice sheets of Antarctica tumbling
into the sea. Greenland will soon be green again. The Arctic Sea a deep blue
where the ice once deflected the rays of the sun back into space. That heat
will be added to the oven that is now our planet.
We
fucked up. Royally. Has there ever been a species this misguided? This
wrong-headed? This stupefyingly myopic?
How
did we lose our way? Did we ever know the way? Is too much consciousness too
little consciousness? Is walking erect with a big head bobbing around not
actually the silliest permutation to ever emerge from the goop of polymers that
brought us here?
Bees
have learned far better ways to inhabit the world and navigate. They use dance
and magnetism. We use needles and glass. Latitude and longitude. Bees use
pheromones and ultraviolet. Cognitive maps.
We
use Rand McNally atlases. Roadside museums and postcard racks.
We
have very little in our language that actually conforms to reality, whatever
reality is. We have nothing in our vocabulary that links directly to the
phenomena oscillating through our nerves and aggregating into the appropriate
words, the right syntax, the right grammatical machinery to convey the ontology
of a chrysanthemum. The disconnect is abyssal. We have nothing as expansive as
echo location. Nothing as informative as odor. Nothing as illuminating as a
waggle dance.
We
invent Gods. We devise religions. We create philosophies and customs.
We
use mobile phones to buy drugs, pesticides to grow biofuel.
Bees
use associative learning. Bees pair stimuli together to form three-dimensional
models of the world. Bees abstract orientation or symmetry and integrate it
into a global representation.
Our
methods are empirical, heavy on technology. Sextants, astrolabes, ring dials,
chronometers. Our understanding of the world requires satellites. Global
Positioning System. Automatic Radar Plotting Aid. Electronic Chart Display and
Information System. Long Range Identification and Tracking.
Bees
have figured things out abstractly. They’ve evolved the honey of cognition into
cells of active memory.
Sleep
will sometimes carry us to distant places and leave us there until the tides of
consciousness rise and we awaken to a new life, or an old life with a new
interpretation, something like Petula Clark singing “La Nuit n’en finit plus.”
The
pendulum, meanwhile, swings back and forth. A biography trembles with seagulls.
Sandy eyelids judge the Salvation Army to be full of goodwill.
Flannel
deepens our sense of tincture, how juicily the light of the chandeliers
enchants the luster of music.
Wherever
you go, there you are. My sentiment regarding cartilage is generally
allegorical, as it should be. Allegory and bone are the fundaments of this
narrative we call life. They structure narratives of illusion and truth.
Plato’s cave. Orwell’s Animal Farm. The
oranges are hypothetical, but we sense that their juices intend a communication
of elves and algebra.
I
may appear a little irrational at times, a bit unkempt, a little delirious, but
I know a hawk from a handsaw when the winds are southerly.
I
was thrown into this life like everyone else by a set of circumstances unique
to the time in which I entered this world. War was one, the splitting of the
atom another. Bombers, uniforms, raging dictators. The film footage suggested
that humanity had gone insane. But we had television to comfort us. If you want
to call Howdy Doody comforting.
Whatever
life may be about, it’s certainly interesting. Percussion stirs the air. A
rhinoceros adorned in rubies stands in the Kenyan rain.
Ghosts
bring us the soft light of other dimensions. Our speech thickens into wax,
malleable transparencies that will sustain a small flame of listening
cognition. Whatever consciousness is, it’s been having a good swim in our
heads. Our eyes shine all afternoon, renewed by the smell of rain.
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